Posts Tagged ‘panic’

Panic, Procrastination, and Progress

July 15, 2019

I had to get outside my comfort zone a little bit this week. The resulting (mild) panic first made me angry, then got me thinking about plot and character development. I write cozy and comedy, so the tension on my pages can’t ramp up to the level of a crime thriller. My readers know my characters are going to survive (I am writing a series, after all), so tossing in a gratuitous train crash would be silly. I need small tensions that can take my character off the rails temporarily and be funny at the same time, things like the anxiety of creating yet another password (which was one of the things that took me out of my comfort zone). It’s not huge, but it presents a conflict that most readers understand.

Then I read an article about a study which proclaims procrastination is not a moral failure but a response to an unresolved emotional reaction. Well, I could have told you that. I know very well that when I procrastinate about my writing it is because I haven’t dealt with my fear of A) losing the thread of the plot, B) getting wrapped up in a new character to the exclusion of the main ones, or C) having no new story waiting for my attention when the current project is over. Figuring out what I’m afraid of, and acknowledging that even if irrational fear must be faced not suppressed, goes a long way toward getting me back on track.

Rewards help too. Sometimes the reward of finishing the task at hand is enough. Sometimes, I need more. I am quite willing to bribe myself to get to the end of an unpleasant chore (“Self, clean one more room and then you can have an hour of free reading!”), but on occasion I get a reward out of the blue. This week I received a gift from my good friend Margaret Misegades. She found the fabulous addition to my reindeer collection pictured above, and it arrived just when I needed a little pick-me-up.

Moral of the story? I’m not sure. All I know is that finding the reason why I’m panicking or procrastinating is more useful than yelling at myself for not accomplishing more; that I can use whatever insight I might glean to create more nuanced characters; that reindeer are still cool.

Luck and wisdom!

One, Two, Three, Many

October 3, 2012

Because the beginning of the month is my busiest week and I’m expecting company next week, I have been paralyzed by deadlines. My mind-body must think crouching in a corner and hoping everything will just go away is a survival skill, but for the life of me I can’t figure out why. I told myself I had to do one thing, just one thing, in the hopes that momentum would let me finish my to-do list.

It didn’t, but I did make some progress on a cross-stitch pattern. Once again, I learned that I can’t count. I managed to put the base stitches mostly in the right places. Since this is an abstract tree, I gave myself permission to put the rest of the stitches and beads where they tell me they want to go:

 

I can see the tree (if I squint)

Next I pawed through some blocks that were made from sorta-kinda-maybe the same fabrics. I was hoping to make a baby quilt from them.

 

Bunnies in blue and black

Reality gave me a dope-slap, and I accepted that they don’t go together. However, I found fabric to make two projects (possibly a baby quilt and a table runner – we’ll see), so I consider this exercise a success.

In the meantime, I’ve been processing fruit. The dried apples and pears are now residing in three separate containers:

 

Healthy snacks that we really do eat

If I am lucky, this latest round of crouching in corners is over so I can meet my deadlines and have the house cleaned before my mother arrives. That will still leave many projects, but I’m used to that.

There’s always more to do